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Hey... i'm alive [12 May 2006|12:53am]
[ mood | sleepy ]

I'm sorry i have forsaken everyone for myspace. The truth is i've come running back because i just can't fully express my feelings, frustrations, etc because everyone and their mom are on myspace now. When i'm pissed at my friends i dont necessarily want them to know the gruesome details of it. So yeah here i am back to express my every uncreative thought bubble.

My Nana had passed away this week. I'm thankful that she isnt suffering anymore but it's still hard to be unselfish and not be sad. My grandparents were really in love. I remember how hard it was on her whenever my Papaw passed away 14 yrs ago. Atleast i can think of her as being at peace and the two of them finally being together again. Atleast I hope that is true.

I'm really disappointed that by the time i was old enough to be curious about where i come from that she was already advanced in her alzhiemer's. I wish that I could have really known her. I wish i could have really known all my grandparents.

I'm moving back home so i can go back to school. I haven't lived at home in 2 years. It's going to be hard. Like tonight my "undefined" Adam was over and like we wanted to make out and fool around but living back at home can kind of put a damper on that when you have an uber religious mom like i do.

Adam was awesome enough to spend the day helping me. Hell yeah. He also got a sweet deal out of it because i cooked him dinner.

Last night we went to see Augustanna at Rythm and Brews. It was so awesome. It was just the thing i needed after the funeral and all that. I was so stoked. The Working Title opened for them. Check them out. They put on a great show.

I'm so tired and I've still got to move and work in the am. Blah. My allergies are all jacked up from the dust that was hiding out under everything. That and i started on the way to the funeral yesterday which was awesome. Here I am all dressed up in black and i lay the tampons and the midol on the counter and look at the cashier guy and say "it's a baddd day" He's just all like "yeah i can see that." It was awesome. The service was really nice. Afterwards I got to stuff my face in the name of comfort with a buffet of free food. Which was all nice except the part about still being in the middle of my parents bullshit even now. My dad was pissed because my mom was there so he decided to bite my head off and be hateful to me. It was freakin awesome. And fortunatly or unfortunatly i can't quite decide, i got sent home with 2 huge plants. One luckily is fake so i only have to worry about possibly killing one of them.

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myspace is the new live journal [06 Sep 2005|10:37pm]
[ mood | optimistic ]

I haven't updated this thing in forever. I've been bad. I am sorry! Things are going just as well as they are bad for me right now. I have an awesome boyfriend who I plan on making many babies with one day lol. We are going through a custody battle with his ex right now. It sucks. He deserves to be a daddy. My heart breaks for him every day. It's been 3 months since he was allowed to see him. Court is next week. Pray or think happy thoughts for us... just depending on what you believe.

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stolen from josh <3 [18 Jan 2005|01:56pm]
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to be a kid again... [16 Jan 2005|03:57pm]
[ mood | calm ]

So i decided the only way i will be able to afford college is to move back home so that's what i am working on this week. I'm moving in with my mom (deep breath). I hope it goes ok. It's so damn far but it's the only way i can hurry up and finish school and move on with my life.

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When it all comes down. [18 Dec 2004|04:36pm]
[ mood | hungover ]

I'm sitting at my friends appartment sitting around and recouperating after a long crazy night. It was the most fun i've had since Jason and I broke up. I went to a Nautilus party. :)

The thought of taking the Christmas tree down has crossed my mind. This year has just been so hard and i have been through so much with Adam, losing my scholarship, being sexually assualted, having a bitch of a roomate, being sued by ex bitch roomate, and now all this with jason and having to find a new place to live after i just moved twice since july. I just feel like there is caos all around me. I can't seem to make the right decisions for myself.

So there is a place my friend lives in the heart of North Chatt. It's walking distance to Frasier and there is an appartment that is available. So i'm calling this guy monday after court to see about getting away from jason asap. Thinking of him makes me want to vomit. There is just nothing good in him. He has some serious issues and he doesnt want to get help for them.
I just wish i had like a grip of things.

There's so much going on that i just dont know where to start getting it back on track. Somethings got to change. Maybe in 2005 i'll figure out how to finally take care of myself.

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he's insane [15 Dec 2004|11:54pm]
[ mood | scared ]

Jason came home and started screaming at me tonight. He just completly freaked out and started slaming doors and screaming at me. It was crazy. I grabbed my shoes and started out the door. He ran downstairs and i really thought he was going to hit me. Instead he screamed at me in my ear. So now i am at my neighbors. I want him fucking out of my life. He's crazy and i cant fucking deal with this shit anymore.

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domestication [18 Oct 2004|05:50pm]
[ mood | working ]

So i've been sharing an appartment for 2 weeks now with my boyfriend Jason. So far so good. We get a long pretty well and seem to have a nack at spending endless hours together and not killing one another. I'm not really ready to "live with" someone yet but this was the best option for me. Anywho so he cleans and we cook together every night. We have like this cozy little home and it's actually quite comfortable. I dunno it's odd but it works.

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LMFAO! [04 Oct 2004|06:29pm]
Your Boobies' Names Are: Love Muffins

yeah baby...
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roomate needed [04 Oct 2004|06:23pm]
[ mood | enraged ]

So i have the roomate bitch from hell. We used to hang out and then when i moved in she started being so hateful and unfriendly to me. Anywho now she has given me a months notice that she is moving out. I wanna fuckin kill her. So yeah i need a new roomate... any takers?

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mm...hm... [05 Sep 2004|05:19pm]
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mmm...mmm... paying bills [22 Aug 2004|04:43pm]
[ mood | loved ]

Been so long since i sat down to type an entry. Got a new job i'm working full time w/benefits and I have a new bf <3. We went to see The Village but we stopped by the liquor store first and got some miny bottles :x. Afterwards we ate at ihop and went back to my appartment. It was cute. Today i stayed at home and cleaned everything. Now i'm at my moms doing laundry and about to eat some free food. :)

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*sigh* MY home.. he [14 Jun 2004|02:08pm]
[ mood | mellow ]

July first i'll be moving in with a friend of mine. She has a place at cambridge park. It's pretty nice and i'm glad to be so close to downtown. Moving out of state is on hold right now. My brother has his resume out and he isnt sure where he'll be moving b/c he wants to leave pensacola. So wherever he ends up moving is where i'll be going. He's talking about New Orleans which would be pretty cool.

Things are going well though. I'm getting a new job, my mom gave me a car, and my friendships have gotten stronger. Taking time to realize your faults and how to be a better friend is a really good thing to do. I'm glad that they can see a difference in me.

I've been walking all weekend. I went to riverbend and to White Water with some 3 yr olds and my mom. :) My legs feel like they are going to fall off.

*thumbs up* to Milele Roots for playing a badass Riverbend set.

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FRAUD! [07 May 2004|09:37am]
[ mood | amused ]

I was hanging out with some friends wed night and we got to talking about music. My friend james knew who Pepper "adam's band" was. Well we started talking about it and he informed me that is was impossible for Adam to be in it b/c they are from Hawaii. Sure enough when i looked them up online he is no where to be found in the band. It's all the same songs and same voice, but it's not even Adam. He made it up. LMAO! What a GD'ed loser. :)

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alone... :) [30 Apr 2004|08:48am]
[ mood | chipper ]

So both sets of parents left town this morning to go to Nathan's college graduation. I couldnt get off work this weekend. I sent him a gift through mom though. It's a tall lamp with a lava lamp made into it. It's so cool. I have to keep things up here plus make sure the outside dog at my moms is okay.
Rain sucks. I have the house to myself til monday and it's raining. grr.
I feel like an old lady. I cant stay up past 11 when i am at home anymore. I fell asleep during ER damnit. Well I must go dry my hair even though it's bound to get wet again anyways!

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tick tock... tick tock [17 Apr 2004|02:43pm]
[ mood | okay ]

Time couldn't seem to pass more slowly. I'm pretty close to paying all of my bills off. So it may even be b4 summer is over.
I talked to Erin and she has found us a place. Very cheap *thumbs up*. Her friend already lives there so we know it's cool. I've been trying to get my shit together. Setting up finacial stuff there. I'll get everything switched over when i move so that school will be in state instead of out. I met this really nice guy but i wont have anything to with him. I feel so strange saying the same lines that Adam said to me, but I actually mean them. I dont want to get attached to anyone. I dont want to stay here and I dont want anyone trying to convince me to stay. My "friends" already gave me enough reason to go. Nathan is excited that I am coming down. We're actually going to get to hang out a lot which is awesome since we havent lived in the same state since I was 14. He's got all the guys to agree to help move me and Erin in.

The Probe is dead. I'm driving the explorer. That's another thing that sucks is I have to find a dependable car b4 I go. Nathan has been looking around down there and I have been looking around town. I'm determined not to take the probe. My friend Ben can fix it but i'd rather get rid of it.

Well i better go get ready for work. I gotta drop off some pictures on the way from Warner's party. Good times. : )

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she works hard for the money... [06 Apr 2004|04:37pm]
[ mood | sleepy ]

Working 2 jobs isnt all that bad. I'm making good money and each day getting a little closer to moving. Things have been going pretty good. I speak to Brett only at work about work related shit. I'm supposed to go eat sushi with my friend Brandy but i'm just way too tired to drive out to Lee Highway. I'm just in the mood to stay in and go to bed early since I gotta get up at 8 every morning for work @ Taco Mac. Not much else I feel like talking about. Life is pretty normal.

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moving on [30 Mar 2004|01:49am]
[ mood | anxious ]

I had a good time in FL. It was definetly over due. I decided while I was down there that I was going to move back there for about 2 years. I need to get out of Chattanooga and away from people that I have known my whole life. I'm tired of living in a city where everyone knows everyone else. I want to leave some shit behind and just fucking move on and out on my own for a bit. I'm saving money so i can get a place with my friend Erin in August. I'm really looking forward to it. I'm so scared but i really think this is a good thing for me. I'm going to go out on my own and not have mom and dad to fall back on. It's all gonna be on me. I really think I need that. I'll be going to PJC (Pensacola Junior College) for the first semester or 2. I'll probably transfer to either University of West Florida(where my brother just graduated from) or I will move and go to school in Nashville or somewhere else. Pensacola is just a starting point.

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birthday's rule ass [22 Mar 2004|03:35pm]
[ mood | high ]

So I went down to good ol' chatt state to give them some money. I ran into my friend Andy and we decided to go get some lunch and smoke. So anywho in the midst of us hanging out i had a stoned epiphany for a great birthday party. Next weekend (not this upcoming one b/c i'll be in FL) we're going to have a toga birthday party for me! Oh yes togas, funnels, and keg stands...haha. I can't wait.

Anywho I saw Dawn of the Dead last nite with my friend Dave (Azrek) it was the shit. Since my cousin is an evil pirate and dl's movies online i am about to watch it again. And then some Secret Window. Woot Johnny Depp!

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My un-birthday [19 Mar 2004|06:47pm]
[ mood | good ]

So I got home from Bryce's house around 4am and just totally passed out. He's this guy that was a senior at SDHS when i was a freshman. He's really hot and we had a good time ;x. So Anywho i got up today and Sarah Jane wanted to spend a day downtown again. So i headed to her house in North Chatt and we went to Mojo Burritto. Yum!!! After that we spent the afternoon in coolidge getting some sun and hanging out with my friend Jess. I love Sarah Jane to pieces and she is moving to Arizona this summer for school. Same with my friend Brandy who is moving to Chicago in may. It just sucks that I made some cool normal girl friends and they are moving.

Richie called while we were at the park and asked me to come over at 6. I got here and he had thought that today was my bday instead of next friday. So he gave me a really cute green bear and a card that is so sweet it makes me feel like shit. I wish I had things together.

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mashed potatoes in muh hair [12 Mar 2004|11:16am]
So far work is going great. I really like the people I work with and we all go out and party afterwards. I work with this guy who reminds me of my old boss from Pac Sun. We just joke and hit on each other all day. It's funny. I actually love the fast pace of my job. Brett and I are supposed to carpool today lol. Today was the first time that I have slept in all week. It's great. I've also been hanging out with this hot ass guy Tim. He's like one of those sweet country guys. Yum. I was at his house til 4am the other night. We shot some pool, threw some darts, then went to the hottub :x, then the shower, and then to bed lol. God his body is just awesome lol! *shakes thought out of head* anywho... the count down to my birthday FL trip is 2 weeks away thank God! I can't wait to get away from here for 5 days and just enjoy being. Well I must go and pick up my money from Sun City and go buy myself something cute to wear out tonight. YaY!
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